Singing in Suffering
I was working out on the elliptical trainer when this song, My Hallelujah (by Cris Law & Cynthia Case) popped into my head.
The song speaks about desperation, weeping, longing, and feelings of loss and abandonment. But within this suffering state, and almost as a way out of it, the singer is crying out, "Hallelujah."
Then I remembered something my friend Christine had shared with me. During one of the most difficult times in her life, she stepped into a Bible study, and found out they were they were reading the psalms. For months, she read those songs of the soul. She was surprised that as the writers called out for help in the midst of great suffering, they were also rejoicing.
Later that week, a song came on the radio and immediately tears welled up and I felt a tingling at the top of my head. Both of these are signs of my truth, so I perked up and listened. The singer was asking Jesus to be healed. But more tears came when he sang that even if things didn't improve, he was grateful for this everlasting love.
All these experiences point to a universal truth: We are never separated from the creative force from which we are made. This love/light/energy surrounds us; it is us. When we remember this, especially in harrowing times, it becomes possible to move out of suffering, and to live with more peace.